This time last year I was well outside of my relationship with God. I was in an ungodly relationship with a non believer. Just one year before that I was constantly smoking and drinking trying to ease my pain. I had been suffering from anxiety and depression for several years and the negative affects were increasing. I was planning my own death. Wondering what people would say about me at my funeral. I was so deep in my despair I asked God to make my death accidental and begged Him to get rid of me. I was done. I was tired, emotionally exhausted, and mentally distraught. However, God did not answer that prayer. One night while I was out drinking and driving ( low key suicide attempt. I'd pray and ask God that if I were to get into an accident it would kill me and harm no other) I hear the voice of the Lord. God spoke to me. As I was driving through traffic beer in one had worldly music blasting trying to drown out the realities of bitterne...